Be positive

Just checked out Quan's photo at Shanghai. It is awesome! There are so many happy moment and so much fun. Life should be like that. I think one thing I really need to work on is how to be more flexible, not very dominant, and always want to be superior. Those characteristic really thanks to my Dad. I know that I have changed a lot. But there is still a long way to go. Seize every day, enjoy the moment, even if it is tough and I am so fucking tired.

The life as a consultant is not easy. True that First Class travel, best hotel stay, and pretty good money. But the life style... I just started my new project this week. It is not easy. I am the youngest one and least experience person in the team. I did not get a very important part. But that's all right with me. The first step is always not that easy so take it slowly. My team is pretty good. My manager is a nice person, my Buddy is a great guy, and Sen is a perfect teacher. I am learning, slowly, but progressing. I think that's important at least.

I am a little lost in my life right now. Who I could blame? Blame the stupid Chinese education system that forbid me to be with the girl I loved when I was in middle school? Blame the fucking jerk? Blame that I don't have everything I want? Blame the bad weather? Bull shit! There is no one to blame. This is the one thing I should always remember -- no one I can change except myself. Anyway, let me try again...

Some truth. It is the second day of my project, but got the feeling of tired. Guess because have not worked for a whole year... And also because that I am kind of without direction of the part I am responsibile of. I need to figure it out by myself. Something wrong, dude! I should be more posistive. I know it is not easy, sitting in a small room, team member all went to interview clients, and no music I can listen to. But just like what's said in BTX, you can be the Sun and shine because you have a piece of the Sun in your blood --> Let it shine! Sure that's a nice attitude.

Coooool dude. Let me get back to work. I need to finish the whole list of tasks today! Peace out.