I woke up today with this feeling that I had never done something that put my life to the edge and give a huge risk to myself. I always chose the "safer and more efficient way", which 90% gave me great success. But the "safe and efficient" and "success" are really in other people's eye. It all thanks to my parents who always guide me to a correct way from their past experience. They don't want to me repeat the hardship they had and mistakes they made in their life. But to me, after I got all the things I wanted before, so what???
So, I had the craziest idea this morning -- "Say no to the firm and then try to find a job here" I know that I could succeed or I could end up with nothing. But thinking about this experience makes me excited. Life needs more flavors, I think.
Well, that's wild idea that I might try later. But, come on, as a MBA student who talked about minimizing risk every single days, and considering the current financial market situation, I should learn something about risk management, right?! Man, I want to do something like Mr. E ("Things the grandchildren should know") and Chris ("Into the wild"). Just to do something I wanna to, but without the terrible ending that happened to Chris.
Whatever, I think I need to get pumped up again today. It will be a busy but relaxing day. 7 miles jogging in WaDuke trail (M), lunch with FY to share consulting interview preparation experience (N), competitive analysis game (M & N), leadership homework (M), Dell interview preparation and call Gerald (A), team meeting (A), 100 push up (ALL), guitar practicing (E).
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No apology necessary at all. Everyone has the right to feel sad and express this feeling. I am myself kind of person that do not want others to see my negative aspect also. I could understand your feeling. That is also something I am struggling and learning. We could not always be perfect, right?! Also, why we need to? It's part of our true selves. Do not push yourself too hard. When you feel sad, talk to people you trust, like your parents and true friends. I believe those who really care about you are always there willing to share your feelings. When you share happiness, there are two; when you share sadness, it's only half. It seems simple. But we might forget.
Sometimes I have the similar feeling as yours. Wake up in the morning. Think about the past. Got everything I want, but feel nothing making sense to me left. No idea at all about how to deal with it. Maybe it's just all about life.
But, to be frank, I feel you get a little bit crazy about your idea of giving up Mckinsey offer. I do not want to say it is right or wrong. Actually nothing is absolutely right or wrong in life. Just maybe better not to make any rush decision when you are in an unstable mood. You might need to calm down and take it for a second thought. By the way, I like the film "Into the wild". But as I remember, in the last scene, Chris was smiling when imagining that he went back home and happily stayed with his parent. Maybe at that time, what he was thinking is what finally he figured out his true self wants.
I am starting to be pointless, coz my simple mind could not process hard problems for too long:P Life is sometimes hard but that's why it is interesting. We could not live it for a second time. Do not regret what is already gone and enjoy TODAY!!!
Thanks Anonymous for the encouragement. I am going to have a jogging in Duke forest. I think after that it will be fine. Good day.
I have found the following philosophy inspiring. Share it with you. Nice day!
“Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming ~ WOW~ what a ride!!”
Thanks for the great RIDE! I totally agree! That's the spirit.
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